i lost the fire..

It's Christmas.. everyone's favorite time of the year.  I am dreading Christmas this year.  I actually just want to sleep through it and hoping that when I wake up, it's already January... or March... or April.  I have this really strong urge to skip Christmas parties.

Am I depressed?  Maybe.  Will I get over this?  Not sure.. but I'm telling you, whatever it is, it's not going to be over soon.


Forgive me friends for being so depressing and sad with my blog posts.  This blog is the only outlet I have for now to vent my feelings.  So, bear with me.

it's not yet time...

I want to cry out all the frustration I am feeling right now.  What could have gone wrong?  We followed orders and did everything we need to do but still... 

How am I going to go through Christmas with you shying away from me and Daddy? I'm all alone.  Daddy is away for 6 mos which makes me super sad right now.

I guess it's STILL not the right time baby.  I'll see you soon, hopefully.