my thoughts...

have you ever sometimes felt how your life just fast forwards infront of your eyes, stopping only for an instant for those few significant moments in your life? At the end of the day, you felt so spent and wonder where have the days gone by. I came to this realization during the days when I was counting and wasting hours, minutes and seconds of my precious life doing nothing. Yes, I did waste my time in cyberspace. Have I made a huge difference in my life? In someone else's life? Well, could be.. maybe... I was helping girls via this female dominated forum giving love advices, financial advises and what-have-yous.. I just hope that I somehow made an impact in their lives. Another thing as well is how my husband really appreciates me for being.. domesticated.. Yeah, I wanted to be a good housewife even when sometimes our household doesn't like me that much. I made sure there's food in the table when the man of the house comes home. I made sure that every comfort is available to soothe his tired mind and body. I did try being a good daughter and sister as well as much as I can. But.. somehow.. I'm not satisfied.. I want something BIG!!! But then again... am I not making a BIG impact on the people I love? Our families.. my husband? Sometimes, I tend to oversee the answers that have always been there. Simple things, though, it may not be that huge compared with what others achieved but if I look at the other side of the coin, I maybe more than enough to those close to me.. to the people I love.

"I maybe insignificant to many.. but I can mean the WORLD to others too.."

True? I hope so...

on growing up...

I sometimes do reminisce the times when I was still a kid.  I just play around all day with my brothers and cousins playing Langit/Lupa and Monkey Monkey.  At the end of the day, we go home and have mud all over our bathroom whenever my mom asks us.. NO!.. order us to wash up before dinner time.  Dinner time consists always of fighting with my brothers over who should get the biggest pork slice from my mom's ever delicious sinigang na baboy with fish sauce and chili as condiments.  Later on, Dad, would try to sneak outside to scare the life out of our living day lights by pretending to be a ghost outside the window.  =)  Also, I always do fight with my brothers the harshest way possible but I still dearly love them.  Well, it's just a part of growing up.

I really, really miss those times.  I don't know...  I miss being young... I miss my family...  Not that I am not happy with hubby right now... but, probably, it's just something that I totally cherish and miss.  Life was simple back then. Those were really the moments when I was truly happy.  But as they say, the only constant thing in this world is change.  Time changes everything.  Youth passes and beauty fades.  Your grow up, get married and start a family of your own.  The cycle of life continues.  You create new colorful memories but the old beautiful memories never, ever fades away.  It will be forever in your heart.

You know what they say when you are about to die?  Well, they say that in the last few moments of your life here on earth, a series of significant memories will begin flashing right in front of your eyes.  Just like an old movie.  I know when that time comes, I will smile and say to myself... it was a life well spent... that will do.

i was late!!

Yes, on my supposed to be 5th day at work today (in reality, it's 4th), i was late for work!  imagine the disapproving glare of one of our senior employees here. My buddy told me that that senior employee has achieved the perfect attendance award for the year!  Just imagine...  no late or absences for 1 year?? Unbelievable!

Anyway, if you notice, updates are pouring in here daily.  THAT is because I have nothing to do yet.  Training officially starts on Monday with our trainor flying in from Singapore.  So, that's gonna be 2 weeks of intensive training..  I can't wait!  New learnings..  =)

Now, am back to sneaking in reading my nook for the meantime..  =P  I wish I don't get caught! =P

on our little angel..

The arrival of our little angel is still much awaited amongst our families. After months of waiting, well... unfortunately, we are still waiting... =( I have transferred OBs and this new OB of mine have lesser patients thus, more time for us (her patients) in discussing our work-up strategies. She has requested me again to lose weight =(. Yah! I gained around 8-10lbs upon arrival of hubby last February. There is something about enjoying food while with your loved ones, right?! So, again, on losing weight, I restarted going to the gym, took up a new sport (mountainbiking) and I am enjoying it! =) This coming weekend, we might be undergoing trail training with a professional mountainbiker! How cool is that?! =) I hope it doesn't rain though. Muddy trails would be hell on our newbie legs =P.

Back to our little angels... an online friend of mine finally got pregnant!!! After years of waiting and spending $$$ on work ups, her little angel was finally conceived the natural way, isn't that the most amazing news?! I am joing her in praying for her to have a safe pregnancy.

As for us, I know our little angel will soon come, well, baby.. sweetheart.. we will be here waiting...

A New Journey Begins Now!

I mentioned before that I was looking for work to keep my boredom at bay, now, here I am.. stuck in my new cube. Lol!  I started work this week only and officially, today is my 4th... o wait! 3rd day.  Why is that?  A typhoon struck the Phils again yesterday and offices were cancelled, at least, for half a day.  I'll talk about the details of the typhoon some other time =P.

Anyway, back to what I mentioned earlier.  Things are pretty much slow..  NO!  slooooowwwww, since my boss is out on vacation for the week and then training starts officially only next week.  For now, I just spend time browsing and browsing the intrAnet.  What a bummer!!  9 hours of just browsing and reading and writing.  As what they say, I guess I need to enjoy it now since next week will be a start of something different! =)  

So, how was it working again after being a bum for the past 8 months???  Well, honestly not much difference except that I wake up early now and go home at around 6 PM and arrived at our house around 7-7:30PM  =(. Yeah, you read it right.. It's a 9-hour daily work schedule, Monday to Friday =(.  Good thing is that they don't bring work at home that often (crosses fingers) =).  Oh btw!  I met an ex-officemate of mine =), that was a consolation after hearing about using Lotus Notes usage (i LOVE outlook!!!), and using paper for VL and SL filing, boohoo!!  =(

Well, I wonder...  what surprises will this new journey give me?  I hope this gives me new learnings and a bunch of new friends too! =)