my thoughts...

have you ever sometimes felt how your life just fast forwards infront of your eyes, stopping only for an instant for those few significant moments in your life? At the end of the day, you felt so spent and wonder where have the days gone by. I came to this realization during the days when I was counting and wasting hours, minutes and seconds of my precious life doing nothing. Yes, I did waste my time in cyberspace. Have I made a huge difference in my life? In someone else's life? Well, could be.. maybe... I was helping girls via this female dominated forum giving love advices, financial advises and what-have-yous.. I just hope that I somehow made an impact in their lives. Another thing as well is how my husband really appreciates me for being.. domesticated.. Yeah, I wanted to be a good housewife even when sometimes our household doesn't like me that much. I made sure there's food in the table when the man of the house comes home. I made sure that every comfort is available to soothe his tired mind and body. I did try being a good daughter and sister as well as much as I can. But.. somehow.. I'm not satisfied.. I want something BIG!!! But then again... am I not making a BIG impact on the people I love? Our families.. my husband? Sometimes, I tend to oversee the answers that have always been there. Simple things, though, it may not be that huge compared with what others achieved but if I look at the other side of the coin, I maybe more than enough to those close to me.. to the people I love.

"I maybe insignificant to many.. but I can mean the WORLD to others too.."

True? I hope so...

on growing up...

I sometimes do reminisce the times when I was still a kid.  I just play around all day with my brothers and cousins playing Langit/Lupa and Monkey Monkey.  At the end of the day, we go home and have mud all over our bathroom whenever my mom asks us.. NO!.. order us to wash up before dinner time.  Dinner time consists always of fighting with my brothers over who should get the biggest pork slice from my mom's ever delicious sinigang na baboy with fish sauce and chili as condiments.  Later on, Dad, would try to sneak outside to scare the life out of our living day lights by pretending to be a ghost outside the window.  =)  Also, I always do fight with my brothers the harshest way possible but I still dearly love them.  Well, it's just a part of growing up.

I really, really miss those times.  I don't know...  I miss being young... I miss my family...  Not that I am not happy with hubby right now... but, probably, it's just something that I totally cherish and miss.  Life was simple back then. Those were really the moments when I was truly happy.  But as they say, the only constant thing in this world is change.  Time changes everything.  Youth passes and beauty fades.  Your grow up, get married and start a family of your own.  The cycle of life continues.  You create new colorful memories but the old beautiful memories never, ever fades away.  It will be forever in your heart.

You know what they say when you are about to die?  Well, they say that in the last few moments of your life here on earth, a series of significant memories will begin flashing right in front of your eyes.  Just like an old movie.  I know when that time comes, I will smile and say to myself... it was a life well spent... that will do.

i was late!!

Yes, on my supposed to be 5th day at work today (in reality, it's 4th), i was late for work!  imagine the disapproving glare of one of our senior employees here. My buddy told me that that senior employee has achieved the perfect attendance award for the year!  Just imagine...  no late or absences for 1 year?? Unbelievable!

Anyway, if you notice, updates are pouring in here daily.  THAT is because I have nothing to do yet.  Training officially starts on Monday with our trainor flying in from Singapore.  So, that's gonna be 2 weeks of intensive training..  I can't wait!  New learnings..  =)

Now, am back to sneaking in reading my nook for the meantime..  =P  I wish I don't get caught! =P

on our little angel..

The arrival of our little angel is still much awaited amongst our families. After months of waiting, well... unfortunately, we are still waiting... =( I have transferred OBs and this new OB of mine have lesser patients thus, more time for us (her patients) in discussing our work-up strategies. She has requested me again to lose weight =(. Yah! I gained around 8-10lbs upon arrival of hubby last February. There is something about enjoying food while with your loved ones, right?! So, again, on losing weight, I restarted going to the gym, took up a new sport (mountainbiking) and I am enjoying it! =) This coming weekend, we might be undergoing trail training with a professional mountainbiker! How cool is that?! =) I hope it doesn't rain though. Muddy trails would be hell on our newbie legs =P.

Back to our little angels... an online friend of mine finally got pregnant!!! After years of waiting and spending $$$ on work ups, her little angel was finally conceived the natural way, isn't that the most amazing news?! I am joing her in praying for her to have a safe pregnancy.

As for us, I know our little angel will soon come, well, baby.. sweetheart.. we will be here waiting...

A New Journey Begins Now!

I mentioned before that I was looking for work to keep my boredom at bay, now, here I am.. stuck in my new cube. Lol!  I started work this week only and officially, today is my 4th... o wait! 3rd day.  Why is that?  A typhoon struck the Phils again yesterday and offices were cancelled, at least, for half a day.  I'll talk about the details of the typhoon some other time =P.

Anyway, back to what I mentioned earlier.  Things are pretty much slow..  NO!  slooooowwwww, since my boss is out on vacation for the week and then training starts officially only next week.  For now, I just spend time browsing and browsing the intrAnet.  What a bummer!!  9 hours of just browsing and reading and writing.  As what they say, I guess I need to enjoy it now since next week will be a start of something different! =)  

So, how was it working again after being a bum for the past 8 months???  Well, honestly not much difference except that I wake up early now and go home at around 6 PM and arrived at our house around 7-7:30PM  =(. Yeah, you read it right.. It's a 9-hour daily work schedule, Monday to Friday =(.  Good thing is that they don't bring work at home that often (crosses fingers) =).  Oh btw!  I met an ex-officemate of mine =), that was a consolation after hearing about using Lotus Notes usage (i LOVE outlook!!!), and using paper for VL and SL filing, boohoo!!  =(

Well, I wonder...  what surprises will this new journey give me?  I hope this gives me new learnings and a bunch of new friends too! =)

updates

How come everytime I write here, it's either I'm depressed, sad, or bored?  Haha.  That's the reason why blogs are made.  It's where you write your innermost thoughts.  Anyway, enough about it.

Things have been pretty much the same lately.  Except that hubby and I started focusing on riding our bikes!  We even had our first taste of trail biking at Nuvali, Sta Rosa last Sunday where we participated in the Men's Health All Terrain 20km bike race.  It  was fun, fun, fun! =)  As first times and as riders who didn't practice at all, I think we did pretty well. We were able to finish the race although I think we belonged at the bottom list. =P  I got a few bruises  on my legs after falling twice.  I call them... battle bruises =).  We will be joining races pretty soon but we need to have hubby's bike repaired first.  Also, we might try the trails in McKinley hills soon. =)

By the way, did I mention we have malayan box and red ear turtles as pets?  Oh!  And a ball phyton too!  =P  I was really against having a snake for a pet!!! I know you dearies will agree to that.  The first two days we had 'snakey', he was able to get out of his cage!  Twice!!! Imagine the horror when I found out that 'snakey' was on the loose inside our house.  Usually, I'm the first to get up in the morning so I check on 'snakey' if he's still there in the cage.  Anyway, I was walking in our living room and kitchen with a snake on the loose!  Luckily, hubby was able to find him before I get panic attacks.  For now, I'm adjusted to having a snake INSIDE the house.  But, I rarely touch him =P .  Maybe, only on occasions when I get drunk or brave or both =).

As mentioned previously, I am still a stay-at-home wifey.  Hubby and I talked about me getting a job while waiting for our little one to come.  It took a lot of convincing before he finally agreed BUT provided that the next job will only be around the vicinity.  Talk about small opportunities.. ugh!  My line of work is in the manufacturing industry and you can rarely see a mfg company in the city.  Sometimes, you need to go to nearby provinces just to get a job.  But still, I'm hoping.  I hope to find a job to keep me busy and to finance our hobbies!! =)  There's nothing like earning your own money, right? 

Time to end my post.  House chores are calling.. TTYL! =)

it's been a while..

yes, it's been ages since I last updated this blog.  I have sooo much to tell but don't know where to start.  But, to tell you, I am really bothered and sad at the moment again.  I will not give the details as people following this blog will probably skip reading it or probably, proceed to delete my link in their respective blogs.. Hehehe.  But then again, this is my blog, this is my personal space.

Maybe in time, I'll begin to share some of it.  I believe there are issues, personal issues that should not be shared in the world wide web.  I hope you understand.  I still want some privacy for a little bit.  Anyway, this I tell you, life really throws issues after issues at you and that no matter how much you avoid it, it will really land smack on your face... and your heart...  But then again, on a positive note, this is just one-of-those days.  I will emerge from this situation, hopefully, unscathed and with a stronger FAITH in HIM.  It is in HIM we will find all the answers.